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HeyI'm thinking of working afterschool with Dean with Mr. Shapiro so then that I can save up money to buy a cell phone and stuff. :) I think I'll tell daddy how much the computer was. He'll probably get really mad, but it just means that I'll be able to pay back my teacher as quickly as possible. :o I also need to do Mrs. Luckey's homework for english. I've been slacking off too much nowadays. Especially in Honors Chemistry. I couldn't understand anything in that class. I wonder what job I'll have when I'm older. I hope I won't be one of those damn prostitutes or anything. I'm too smart and stubborn for that. I don't get to talk to Garritt on the phone tonight because he's watching his dad play in his band. I think he's completely forgotten about me anyways. I keep on thinking about breaking up with him because it feels like it won't really work out. I don't think I'm a good match for him anyways. To me.. I think that he's boring and isn't really that interested in talk with me. It's hard to find what to talk about and he doesn't really listen to what I have to say. I'm not really sure if things will work out.. I keep on thinking.. That maybe there are other people who would be better than him that I could be with. I don't know. I shouldn't be concerned with that. I should be more concerned on work and school. That's what matters more. I just asked dad for $20 to pay back my teacher. I owe her approximately 182.19 I think. Blah. I'm absolutely in debt. I really think that I should work it off in Shapiro's class. haha.. Ah geez. I keep on thinking about other guys that I could be with. Dean.. Kevin.. (but it's all in imagination) Just because I think about or imagine myself in those situtations or if they liked me or not.. Doesn't mean that they do. I'm just imagining things and not thinking realistically. I need to control myself so then that I don't ruin it. Sometimes I start to not like Garritt because there's not much to talk about and when I try to talk to him about something.. He doesn't pay attention or says things vaguely instead of being more specific or straightforward. It bothers me. It irritates me so much. I just wish he would just try to be more talkative or want to talk to me or even just listen to me and tell me what he's thinking! Augh!

I should be happy though. I'm smart. Interesting. Talented. Beautiful. Cute. Sexy. I have an awesome computer(*cough cough* piece of crap), zune, and a great life. I should just try harder and be myself.

I'm in dance (with Mrs. Plescia), Guitar Class, and Enviromental Club. I want to do these things. I am interested in doing these things because I want to participate and try hard, even if I think that I'm not good at it. I'll keep on trying and do my best. :) I know that I can do it! I'm smart! I try hard.. I am determined!