Always JUST Wishes..

Hey you! Nobody wants to listen to me anymore. Like I said. I am better off alone. Where can one find happiness? In others, like romantic love? In friends? In family? In things? Where is it? I think it's in ourselves. There is so much that I want, but I feel as if I can't reach.
I want a happy relationship filled with love between me and my boyfriend. I want communication. I want [insert items]. I want to write my own book series. I want to be in a band and make music. Either vocals or playing the guitar or both. I want to be happy without love and happy with it. Someone who makes me laugh and isn't serious all the time and understands me. I want all of those things, but it feels like they're unreachable. I want to be a mangaka, so I can write manga books. I have so many ideas and images in my head I want on paper. I want to be in a band and connect with people who believe in me and want all of us to succeed, by making music TOGETHER. Believing in each other. They feel so far away right now.
Vocalist, Writer, Mangaka..
Whatever.. People always say they're just dreams. Your thinking too..

Nails dig the deepest into skin
Pour all hearts within
How can it be made
From something so complicated
Soul born filling me
Just a body